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I struggle.

I hold onto grudges and hurts. It’s not healthy. It’s not Christian.

I struggle having a forgiving heart.

There are a lot of bible verses about forgiving. In fact, forgiveness is the cornerstone of the Christian faith. Jesus died on the cross so that our sins can be forgiven. In the Lord’s prayer: “Forgive us our trepasses, so that we may forgive those who trespass against us”.

Forgiveness is important.

That being said, my husband forgot Valentine’s Day and I’m hurt.

We used to not do gift exchanges because we didn’t have the money, but now I’m working full time and I’m working a lot, there isn’t a reason to not indulge a little. I even made it easy for him and told him point blank that I wanted a box of chocolates and flowers.

Nothing.

Since he keeps the debit cards, credit cards, and cash on him, I couldn’t buy him anything. Instead, I made him a plate of food to take to work. Decorated a takeout box (I keep these on hand) with hearts and everything.

He didn’t say thank you. He didn’t even acknowledge that I had done anything different other than make a new recipe. And even then I only got a “Food was yummy” text.

Am I asking too much? Maybe he doesn’t feel that I am doing a good enough job at balancing home and work. Maybe I’m struggling in homeschooling our oldest two.

BUT THAT’S THE MAIN PROBLEM!!

I run 2 side businesses, have a full-time job that I regularly get overtime for, and I’m up all day homeschooling the kids. Plus I write this blog and am editing his manuscript.

All I wanted was flowers and a box of questionable chocolates.

My kids made me cards though. =)

 

What do you do when you struggle with a forgiving heart?

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