I’m not a good Christian. I wasn’t raised in a Christian household. I don’t pray before I eat. I swear…..a lot. I haven’t read the Bible in it’s entirety because some of it is boring. I stopped going to church because I found the people to be fake. Christian music is ear rape to me.
But my faith is strong.
Because of that faith, I keep every small Bible given to me. The Gideons find me a lot. Probably due to the fact that I do work on a college campus.
My favorite verse is Psalm 23:1. “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want”. I can’t explain why that verse speaks to me; it’s just the most meaningful promise to me. My mom insisted that it the 23rd Psalm be read at my dad’s funeral and I completely spaced out after the preacher said the first verse. I have hung on it ever since.
I grabbed my little Bible today and flipped to a verse to help with insecurity, John 10:27,28. “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.” This screams Psalm 23:1 to me.
I know stress stems from insecurity. Work stresses me out because I wonder if I should have got the promotion. Home life stresses me out because I wonder if I should be working or staying home with the kids. These are insecurities and I have to learn to deal with them if I am to avoid future stress face.
This is my year to relax.